Happy new year – and also, happy 10 years of blogging (most of it you don’t really have access to) for me!

The year 2017 is definitely one of my best years lived. Period.

For all of the sh*t that was thrown at me in 2016, 2017 was able to make up for it and much more. This year marked the epitome of my personal growth so far.

I never expected to have been able to do so much within 365 days but what I’ve learned from all of this is that my journey is not linear (the saying was inspired by Sahra Vang’s motto, “life is not linear”) – and it will never be for at least, the next few years (although I wouldn’t be surprised if it does not stop becoming unpredictable for as long as I live).

I have made decisions that have allowed me to challenge myself so often that getting out of my comfort zone has become an everyday norm for me. I am no longer afraid of executing unconventional ideas and making crazy last-minute plans based on these unconventional ideas. You can bet that I don’t expect myself to stop taking such actions anytime soon either!

Now, the next question that I am currently stuck on:

How do I expect to evolve and grow in 2018?

Well, I hope to continue working on projects but on a greater scale and at a slower pace.  For one, I’ve learned that art cannot be forced, which has been what I’ve been struggling to accept alongside with my constant seeking for approval of others for the past year or so. This leads to not just an artist’s block but to also more questions that have been in the back of my head for a while:

Why do I feel this constant pressure to seek approval of others? Who am I trying to prove? To others or to myself?

Despite my accomplishments in 2017, I also learned that there were deep insecurities that I would need to acknowledge and unpack eventually as well. It seemed that I had very high expectations for myself when it came to achieving the projects that I thought would be self-defining. But guess what? As grateful as I am for projects like Curiosity in Style and Project Voice, I am much more than the content I create and publish online for them.

I hope that in 2018, I will be able to disconnect from the digital world a little bit more to slow down and process these unspoken self-doubts of mine. In the meantime, I also want to simply appreciate and feel constantly inspired by both the significant and small moments happening IRL (“in real life,” I learned) as well.

So, as Project Voice comes to its season finale, I hope to push myself to expand on the meaning of what it means to be living as a digital content creator, as a TRUE artist of life – at my own pace.

TLDR: I am – and actually, have been – taking a break from trying to prove myself and others who I aspire to be better at.

Much love,