There’s a new trend in town: tucking your hair behind your turtlenecks. No kidding!
Where am I heading in the future? (Sounds pretty dramatic, huh?)
You would think that by now, I would have a very specific idea of what I want to do right after college.
Well, guess what? I don’t. And I would constantly spend hours late at night worrying and doubting myself.
Honestly, junior year has been a struggle – not just academically, but personally as well (although my emotions most likely have affected my performance in class, more or less). You would think that after my internship and all of my other relevant experiences, I would have a better vision of where I was going. But what you probably didn’t expect was the opposite; the fact that the experience actually made me question my capabilities.
There are these questions that I am constantly asking myself during times of stress (best times to ask, right?): What do I want to do and what do I really want to do? Will I be able to achieve them? How much does it matter if I pick one over the other? Will I be happy and well-fed (let’s be real: food is all a girl needs) if I pick either? And most importantly, will I have any regrets with the path that I plan to take? How are others going to be affected my decision? Will I let anyone down?
To tell you the truth, sometimes I wish I could graduate already (although that doesn’t invalidate the fact that I still am having 3 of the best years of my life here in college and that I do believe college has a lot to offer to people). It’s just that I often feel like I would rather invest my time on “other things,” personal projects that would better help me answer questions about where I’m going in life.
But maybe it’s because I am just being impatient. Or maybe I am right and I need to do something about it to change it… After all, I am not the type of person to settle.
Note: Just because you wear a sweater doesn’t mean you can’t glam the attire up with a simple, chunky necklace. This outfit guarantees you to keep yourself warm all day. One oversized turtleneck sweater and one wool cardigan. Who needs a coat?
Although I wasn’t able to update my blog in November and December, I am glad that I was able to stay committed to it over the fall. Staying consistent with my fall posts was the goal that I had set for myself before the school year started, so I felt satisfied, knowing I was able to meet it with the help of my friend, Jessenia. Thank you so much, Jess!
As few as these posts might have seemed to you, they took up countless hours of my time. I would make sure to squeeze them in my busy weekly schedule, even knowing that I wouldn’t get much return from it. It was something that I had to do for myself. But honestly, I don’t think I would’ve been able to continue writing if it wasn’t for the photographers’ talents and all of your support, so THANK YOU.
So, I know that many of you are probably asking me why I don’t just go into fashion. Pursue your passions, right? But I don’t want to spend the rest of my life in one field…
I confess, I like finance. Working with numbers and analyst reports, reading the latest market trends… As nerdy as it sounds, I think working in finance sounds really interesting. I find it fascinating to be surrounded by such knowledgeable people. I enjoy being in the know and being challenged. And I think it’s very important to stay well-rounded and up to date with what’s going on in the world.
Then, the second question that I would get after all of this would be, “Why not combine or balance the two interests?”
I’m trying, ha-ha! That’s a start, right? Even now, just trying to balance between academics and my fashion blog can be a struggle at times. I don’t know how Jen from Extra Petite does it. #strugglesofaliberalartsstudent
But honestly, I hope that I don’t give up either path anytime soon, regardless of my past struggles. I want to balance between both – and I have, and I believe I still can.
So, my message to you: don’t give up. As cliche and cheesy as it sounds, it’s really important to not lose sight of what you want in life, especially when you start to face pressures from other people. Whether it’s a bad grade or a rejection letter, don’t EVER, EVER let that define you. Screw the system. You are much more than that. Move on and do something even better, because you are in control of your world. Nothing can determine your worth unless you let it. If you want to succeed, you can and you will.
I mean, I’m nowhere near perfect. I am still working on everything I’ve written to you, and I think what would help me a lot now would be to get away for a while (not that my college wasn’t far enough from home) and really explore and try new things while I am there. Who knows? Maybe a little separation will help me find myself.
Announcement: Oh, and by the way, I actually do have a place to go already.
SHANGHAI, that is! Whoo! So excited!
To be brief, I will be studying abroad in Shanghai for a semester, staying there from January to May 2015. More information about my trip will be up soon, so look forward to it!
I am quite nervous about it, but I’d like to think that it’s normal for me by now to be constantly on the go.
IT IS TIME.
American Eagle // Turtleneck Sweater | JC Penny // Cardigan // Ripped Jeans | H&M // Necklace
PHOTOGRAPHY BY JOANNE NGUYEN